Help! I Have Lost My Identity

 

I do not know about you, but becoming a homeschooling mom was exciting and let down at the same time. I was a mom with a career that I loved. A career that had taken me 6 long years of college to complete. Here I was giving up all of my hopes and dreams to stay at home. I was literally confused. (more…)

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Be Careful Little Eyes What You See!!

 

 I don’t know about you, but as I mom, I seem to notice more inappropriate images every where that I go with my kids. I get so frustrated that they see images (usually of women) dressed inappropriately all the time. I currently have a 9 year old daughter that is such a girly girl. She loves fashion and just girly things in general.  Dressing modestly is something that is very dear to me, and I feel like I am fighting a losing battle.

How, What the Eyes See Affect Our Thoughts


Think of the time that you were driving down the road and saw a sign with a juicy hamburger and thought, wow, I could really go for a hamburger right now. You start to crave that hamburger and your thoughts are nothing but, how hungry you are all of sudden. The same thing is true when it comes to sexual images portrayed around us.

Younger Kids


Early exposure to sexual content in the media may have a profound impact on children’s values, attitudes and behaviors toward sex and relationships. Unfortunately, media portrayals do not always reflect the message parents want to send. (more…)

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I Don’t FEEL Like Adulting Anymore

 

Today I woke up and felt tired. I felt sad, annoyed and just grumpy. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I didn’t want to clean the dog pee on the floor or make my kids breakfast. I didn’t want to make my husband his lunch. And I definitely didn’t want to wash the dishes, do the laundry, pick up the house, or the other never ending list of chores that I always have.

I do NOT FEEL like adulting anymore. I QUIT!!! (more…)

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No More!! I Am Enough!!

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I just want to be enough for once. I have been told that I am crazy and unlovable for far too long. I have let man control who I am. I have spent too much time worrying about what others think of me. Well no more!! I confess I am broken. I am a sinner. I am nothing compared to God. By God’s grace, I am good enough.

Knowing That You Are Needy

The little girl who falls and scrapes their knee, needing someone to clean the wound, bandage it and hold her till it heals. That is me. I want to be tough and all put together, but I am not. I am so needy. Needy of a savior that strengthens me.

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)

It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to be needy. Growing up, I was told to be tough. Do NOT cry. You are tough. But, I’m not!!! I need Jesus. I need to fall apart and have someone catch me. And no one, no human can consistently be there to catch me. Only God can hold me, restore me, make me whole again. Enough, to stand again and feel joy. Enough to rise above it all, into a cloud of peace. To feel the sun, smell the roses and stop to love again. Only God makes me enough.

Stop trying to be enough. It will never happen. Only Jesus can do that. Jesus already died for you. He already paid the ultimate sacrifice. He died to save us from our sins. When he died, he tore the veil in the temple, allowing normal people to finally be able to approach God and talk to him. He gave us a way to make it to Heaven, that did not include a whole list of good deeds that had to be done first. By God’s grace alone, you are saved. Grace means to love those that do not deserve it. That is me in a nutshell. Everyday I sin. Everyday I make a mistake. But, everyday God still loves me. God still holds me close and calls me his daughter. Amen!! (more…)

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The Frustration of Puzzle Pieces that Don’t Fit

 

Our life can be like that too. I do not know how many times I have thought, “Why am I here?” “What is my purpose on this earth?” I have felt so small, so unimportant to the world that I have wondered, “Am I even suppose to be here?” But then I met God, things started to change.

The Puzzle Master

Life can be like a bunch of puzzle pieces that do not make sense. I remember waking up one morning wondering how I got there. Looking at the mess that I was in, knowing that this is not where I wanted to be. Somewhere along the way I took a wrong turn and now life didn’t make sense at all. I didn’t know what to do, or where to turn, so I just started praying. I even started going to church because I didn’t think that life could get any lower.

Back then I wanted God to fix my life the way that I wanted Him to. Just like when I am doing a puzzle, I start with the outside pieces then I sort the inside pieces, it makes the process so much easier. That is what I wanted God to do with my life. I wanted him to make my life easier, but in my way.

What if that isn’t how it works? What if he creates each puzzle piece as he goes, working from the inside out?

THAT DIDN’T MAKE ANY SENSE TO ME!!

Frustration set in. What do you mean that you are not going to fix my life and make it easier, that is why I started praying to you.

 

“Just as you cannot understand the path of the wind or the mystery of a tiny baby growing

in its mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the activity of God, who does all things.”

(Ecclesiastes 11:5)

God is often unpredictable and mysterious. At first, this can be an overwhelming idea. I never wanted to deal with more unknowns. I wanted an answer, a savior, a knight in shining armor. I didn’t want to have to trust in something again, something that didn’t make any sense to me. But that is exactly what He was asking of me.

Faith is believing the pieces will fit perfectly even when we don’t know how ~ Cyndy Sherwood

I had to stop demanding that God do things my way. I had to trust and let him take over the puzzle called life.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge 

Him, and He will make your path straight.” (Provers 3:5-6)

This is what I had been asking for all along. Please Lord make my life easier. And as I started to trust Him more, the easier it was to see how the puzzle pieces were going to fit together. Life seemed to make more sense.

Not ALL The Pieces Fit

I remember being a teenager and having so many dreams. I didn’t want to have kids. I wanted to live in a city. My dream job was being a graphic designer for a major corporation. I wanted the money, the big house or condo. But God had another plan.

I am now a homeschooling mom. I used to be a public school teacher and quit my job to follow God. I work part time as a waitress at a local winery. I have three kids 16, 9 and 6. I have been married and divorced. I have been remarried now for 5 years. My life is God, my kids, my husband and this website. I never thought in a million years that I would one, have to trust in God and rely on Him for everything in my life. And two, that God would call me to quit my job and then financially have to trust my husband to provide. That was the hardest one. I was always that girl who took care of herself. I didn’t need anyone else.

Just like, when I am doing a puzzle and the pieces start to look the same. I get confused and frustrated. Sometimes I had to pick up piece after piece and keep trying them till one fit. This process was tedious and frustrating. Life is the same way. When we try to fit a piece into our puzzle called life and it doesn’t fit, we have a tendency to just pick up another piece and try that one too. After 20 pieces that do NOT fit we start to feel like a failure. Depression can set in. Darkness seems to want to swallow you whole. And maybe even the thought of giving up creeps into your mind. I have been there.

 

” The Lord isn’t really being slow about His promise, as some people think. No, he is being 

patient for your sake. He does not want anyone to be destroyed, but wants everyone to 

repent.” (1 Peter 3:9)

But what if we put the puzzle pieces down? What if we let God put them where they belong or even create new pieces that we didn’t see before? Would we be so bold as to let Him?

Allowing God to be the Puzzle Master, let’s us focus on what is important. RIGHT NOW!! The darkness begins to lift. We see puzzle pieces that begin to fit. Pieces that are a brighter color than before. And even if we still cannot see the end picture, I know that it will be a picture that is more beautiful than I can imagine.

” ‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord. ‘They are plans for good and 

not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will

listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. I will be found by you.’

says the Lord.” (Jeremiah 29:11-14)

So stop trying to fit the puzzle pieces of LIFE together. Give it to God. Let Him be the one that creates your life. I promise the picture at the end will be more beautiful than you have ever imagined.

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