I’m a Mom and I’m Not Perfect
What Do You Mean You Are Not A Perfect Mom?!!!
I have come to the realization that I will never be a perfect mom. I will never have a house that is organized, clean, and looks like it was in a magazine. I will never be able to have amazing meals ready for dinner, when my husband comes home every night. I will never be that mom that is calm, sweet and gentle all the time. I will never have all the answers to my kids’ questions. And I certainly will never be able to understand my teenage daughter, but I can keep asking God to help me with this.
All my life I have been a hard worker. Your success was measured by the type of job you had, how hard you worked and how clean your house was. Now I am a stay at home mom, who homeschools her three kids and runs the youth group at her church. I do not bring any money into our household at this time. I have a hard time keeping our house clean, because we are home all day. And I feel like I do not do any work that is worth while, or so I thought.
God has shown me how wrong I am. Since we started homeschooling I know my teenage daughter better than ever before. I am able to play with my kids and make memories. I have the capability to show my kids who God really is. To have them follow Him and become kids that help others and make the world a better place when they grow up. WOW!! I have so much more responsibility now than I did when I was a public school teacher.
What is even harder is I constantly kept telling my husband that I was sorry. Sorry for how messy the house was. Sorry that I didn’t dress nicer. Sorry that I didn’t have a chance to make a great dinner. Sorry that I wasn’t contributing to the bills. Sorry… Sorry… Sorry… I felt like I was a fraud. When he first met me I was a public school teacher. I made pretty good money and had great insurance. Now I was mooching off of him. Expecting him to be in charge of all the financial issues.
STOP!!! I was driving myself crazy. God had asked me to homeschool. I needed to trust Him. He knows more than I do. So I started to just relax. Look around. Take in each day with my kids and enjoy my family.
Things started to change. I was a better wife for my husband. I felt more in the mood to be intimate with him than before. I felt like my kids had more time with me, to play and talk and enjoy time as a family. My family was truly a family.
We now have dinner together almost every night at the dinner table. We build with legos, play board games, ride 4-wheelers and more together everyday. We talk about things all the time, especially with our teenager.
The best part of all of this, is realizing that I’m worth a lot even though I do not contribute financially to our family. I am a wonderful mom because I am not stressed out about the house having to be perfect. My kids actually like our house a little dirty. They said that it makes them feel more comfortable. Finally, I am an amazing mom because I do not have to run around with my head cut off, working hard all the time. I can relax and now so do my kids. All in all I am just the way God wants me to be and that is all I need.
Have you ever felt less than others because you do not have a glamorous job?