Pain in The Growing Process And Finding The Light At The End of The Tunnel
Being Laid Off
My husband was laid off back in October. My first reaction was, OK God, you have gotten us through my husband losing his job before, you will do it again. You see, it can be pretty gut wrenching when the only person in your home that brings in a paycheck, loses their job. I have wanted to cry the last time that this happened, but what good would that do. So with peace truly in my heart this time, I have remained calm and put my trust in God.
November came and went with no job. I was so thankful that we had some money saved. We were also receiving unemployment by this time, even though it was about a fourth of what my husband was use to making. We started helping out at our local food pantry and then taking home a box of food ourselves. This alone saved us about a $100 a month. We were able to go to three different family Thanksgiving get together. At each place I was allowed to bring home enough leftovers to feed our family for the next whole week.
December was next. At first I was a little apprehensive about December with Christmas coming and all. That meant having to come up with more money. I was worried, until, I remembered that we had a little over $800 in travel money to spend. Why not take the kids on a small vacation for Christmas? So that is what we did. We looked at going to an indoor water park, but the thought of having to be in the same place for three days was not very appealing. Then we thought about going to the city of Boston. My husband and I had taken a two day trip to Boston over the summer to watch the Yankees play the Red Sox. My mom had been able to get five tickets, right behind home plate and had asked if my husband and I would like to join her. “Absolutely,” I said. So my dad, his fiance, myself and my husband, were able to get to Boston about 4 hours before the game and had decided to tour the city a little bit. I fell in love with the city at first sight. Taking our kids to a place that I so desperately wanted to see again, sounded like a great idea. So that is what we did.
I was able to call my mom and have her send the kids their $50 for Christmas a little early, so that they could take it with them to Boston. We left on a Wednesday morning, all the while, the kids were trying to guess where we were going. It took them about 3 hours to figure it out. Once we were there, the kids were so excited. Being in a big city was really different, than where we come from. We went out that night, using the subway to travel into the city. It was really cool to show our 15 year old, how to purchase a ticket for the subway and how to use the maps to get where we wanted to go. We ended up eating at a great seafood restaurant, right down by the bay.
We ended up going to see Harvard and the National History Museum. We went to the aquarium and were able to pet the sting rays. We spent our last day going to the Science Museum and seeing a 4D movie. What an experience!! We watched the Polar Express and during the movie we were sprayed in the face, hit in the legs with something that made you feel like tiny chunks of ice were hitting you. When the whistle blew you could feel the wind in your face. All around it was awesome. Then the last day came and we headed home.
Finally, Christmas came. My sister came home from North Carolina and surprised the family. It was my favorite present ever. We had Christmas party after Christmas party. And I was so thankful that I had bought homemade calendars at the end of the last year. This way we were not scrambling around trying to buy presents for everyone. Even though the homemade calendars took about 40 hours between myself and my two daughters to put together. It was still worth it in the end.
Then, came New Year’s Eve. Fun with family and friends. Laughter, playing cards and talking about life, while 11 kids ran around our house. Hope of a New Year, sprang me into action of getting my priorities in order. Making new goals of working on my website more, making sure that I read the Bible and put God first everyday, health goals and even a goal to eat at the dinner table together more often. How these goals set my heart on fire.
January left, and still no job. We continued to pray. Leaving our faith and all the control in God’s hands. I watched two of our cars have a lot of problems. My husband working tirelessly on fixing them both. More money going out the window. Fees for medical bills, and kids needs and more kept coming up. But, we kept our head held high. I still had peace knowing that God would provide.
February is now here. It is already half way through February. And Still NO JOB!! How hard it has been lately! I’ve been in worse financial situations. We are not behind on any of our bills yet, and we are able to pay all of our bills right now. But, taking a cold hard look at the facts about our financial situation was sobering. I was proud to say, that we did not get frustrated with each other and walk away from our conversation about our finances, like we usually do. We took the time to listen and try to figure out what to do next.
My brain keeps saying, go out and get a job NOW!! What are you waiting for?? But, my heart is reminding me of God’s promise,
“For I know the plans that I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give
you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29:11).
I know that my God is in control. I know that He has the power to give us a break from this problem. I also know, that you grow from the pains in life.
“Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;
perseverance, character; and character, hope.” (Romans 5:3).
Having hope at the end of the day is all that I need. Hope is the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best. It provides me with the patience and strength to endure till God provides us with an answer.
“And we know that in all things God works for the Good of those who love him,
who have been called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28).
Remaining in this hope is the hard part. It is so easy to become discouraged and change the path that you are on. To abandon what God is telling you to do, because you are running low on resources. You feel like the path that you are on, is heading straight for the cliff and staying on it will lead to destruction. But, what you do not realize is that the path that you are on, leads to a place better than you can imagine. Now, it might not turn into a path of sunshine and roses over night. God, does things on his own time. Please, be patient. Pray when things get hard. Ask God to give you his strength in your times of weakness. Knowing that He sees the bigger picture. He knows the end result, if only we can stay the course.
“but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings of eagles; they
will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” (Isaiah 40:31).
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not
be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9)
Amen!!! To know that my God is with me, lightens my heart to joy. You see, it isn’t the riches of this world that make us great, it is our hope in the Lord and the treasures to come. So if you are in dismay and do not know what to do, turn to God. Pray to Him, and tell Him that you need patience, strength and peace in this time of turmoil. Praying allows you to be filled with the Holy Spirit and accomplish things that you couldn’t do before. If you knew me before I came to God, you would realize what a miracle it is for me to have peace in a time of financial crisis. I use to suffer from major panic attacks, but not as much since coming to God. You can have this peace to. I promise.
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the
world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” (John 14:27)
I have grown so much as a mom, wife, daughter, friend and just all around human being, since I gave my life to God. Has it been easy? NO WAY!! God didn’t promise us a life of peace and tranquility. There will still be hard times, but at least now I can face them without falling apart. Without feeling like the world is coming to an end. The anxiety and sadness has disappeared. And, in its’ place, there is peace, joy and hope.
What problems are you having that seem to big to overcome? Have you tried to turn to God? Have you prayed? Have you asked Jesus to give you his peace, not the peace as the world knows it?