No More!! I Am Enough!!
I just want to be enough for once. I have been told that I am crazy and unlovable for far too long. I have let man control who I am. I have spent too much time worrying about what others think of me. Well no more!! I confess I am broken. I am a sinner. I am nothing compared to God. By God’s grace, I am good enough.
Knowing That You Are Needy
The little girl who falls and scrapes their knee, needing someone to clean the wound, bandage it and hold her till it heals. That is me. I want to be tough and all put together, but I am not. I am so needy. Needy of a savior that strengthens me.
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)
It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to be needy. Growing up, I was told to be tough. Do NOT cry. You are tough. But, I’m not!!! I need Jesus. I need to fall apart and have someone catch me. And no one, no human can consistently be there to catch me. Only God can hold me, restore me, make me whole again. Enough, to stand again and feel joy. Enough to rise above it all, into a cloud of peace. To feel the sun, smell the roses and stop to love again. Only God makes me enough.
Stop trying to be enough. It will never happen. Only Jesus can do that. Jesus already died for you. He already paid the ultimate sacrifice. He died to save us from our sins. When he died, he tore the veil in the temple, allowing normal people to finally be able to approach God and talk to him. He gave us a way to make it to Heaven, that did not include a whole list of good deeds that had to be done first. By God’s grace alone, you are saved. Grace means to love those that do not deserve it. That is me in a nutshell. Everyday I sin. Everyday I make a mistake. But, everyday God still loves me. God still holds me close and calls me his daughter. Amen!!
Maybe, we need to just take the jump. Fall into his arms and just be. Let him hold us till we are enough again. Whoever said that you are not enough that was sinless themselves.
“Let him who is without sin among you be the first to
throw a stone at her.” (John 8:7)
For Jesus knew that none of us is without sin. We all have sin in our life. We all fall short of being enough, unless we come to God. When we come to God, he not only cleanses our feet from the filth that we walk in everyday, he cleanses our whole body from within.
So I went to a Women’s Conference this weekend called, The IF Gathering. Jennie Allen is the founder of this organization and she was one of the first women to speak at the conference. Can I tell you it was heart warming and a smack in the face at the same time. She talked about how sin has held us back for so long. How as woman feel guilty and that we do not measure up in almost everything that we do. Maybe we think that we need to lose weight and look better. Maybe you are a successful woman and feel guilty that you do not spend enough time with our children. Maybe your house is not completely clean the way that you think that it should be, or you do not cook enough home cooked meals, or even the guilt about not being sexy enough for your spouse. All of these feelings are what are holding us back.
Well, Jennie Allen, being the amazing women that she is, decided to talk about her most recent sin. She said that she couldn’t ask us to let our sins go, if she wasn’t willing to do it herself. So in a sincere voice, choking back her words, she talked about a conversation that she just had with a close friend. They were talking about how big the IF Gathering has become, and Jennie looked at her friend and confessed, that she doesn’t understand why God chose her? That she doesn’t feel like she is enough, to be the one in charge of this unbelievable conference. Through her tears she whispered, how she feels so inadequate. Then, she talked about how that is a sin, because God is the one who asked her to put the Gathering together. That it was all of God’s doing and how dare she feel this way, when she has him in her corner. That because of him she is ENOUGH.
Well, I feel compelled to share my most recent sin with you. I am the opposite of Jennie. I wonder why MY website has not taken off more? Why God has not made ME more well known? I have worked really hard at getting this website to take off. Why is he not doing more and making this website great? My pride gets in the way of me truly seeing what this website is all about. I love to see other women who are sharing the gospel, but I get jealous when their website is doing better than mine. I wonder why they have more views and likes than I do. I totally forget that God asked me to start this website to share His glory. That the whole reason behind this website is to have people come to God and grow in their Christian faith. You see, this website has nothing to do with me. Even though, I continually want to be recognized for doing something good. This website is and will always be about God.
After I confessed my sin to God and truly repented, I knew that I would have to keep confessing and asking God to help me with my jealous feelings. That the temptation to keep feeling this way would keep coming. But, knowing that he will cleanse me and give me the strength to overcome this sin, allows me to stand up straight. To hold my head high. Because, I am a daughter of the Most High God.
You can do the same. You no longer have to live in your past mistakes. You do not have to be defined by your sins anymore. You can let them all go. Right Here!! Right Now!! Maybe you have a problem with an addiction. Whether it is with drugs, alcohol, pornography, your smart phone, eating too much, clothes. Whatever it might be, confess it to God right now. Maybe you are in the midst of an affair on your spouse, or someone you promised you would be faithful too. Confess it right now. Maybe, you spend money behind your spouses back. You want to stop but you just can’t. Confess it right now. Maybe, you are a parent who ignores their kids when you are home with them. You want to be a better parent, but all of the things that you love to do win out all the time. Confess it right now. Maybe, you feel jealous at what other people have around you. You want to have what they have. And why not, you work harder and are a better person than they are. Confess it right now. Maybe, you have a tendency to talk bad about others behind their backs. Confess it right now. Maybe you judge those around you, thinking that they should do things in their life a different way. And, instead of praying for them or talking to them in a loving way on how to change their life, you tear them down or gossip to others about all the bad choices that they are making. Confess it right now.
DO NOT WAIT any longer. You can not become who you are really suppose to be until you release the baggage of sin. The devil wants you to feel condemned. He wants you to feel bad about yourself, because then he can hold you down. Keep you from being a light in this dark world. And if you do not confess your sin, it will not change. You will continue to be just the way that you are, when God is waiting for you to confess. To stop hiding, and feeling like you have to be this super woman or man. To just lean on him and know that you are ENOUGH!!
Let me know how confessing your sin has helped to change your life. Leave a comment below. If this blog helped you and you know someone that is struggling with a sin that they need to confess, to finally feel like they are enough, share this blog right now!