Finally Planting the Right Seeds
I so want to be like God. I want to produce fruit of love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. I crave the idea of being the perfect mom, who always knows just what to say or do to make her children virtuous. I long after the notion that I can be the wife that always makes my husband happy. That I will save the world, and still look good doing it.
But let’s get real here. I must fall at least 20 times a day. Literally, smack my face on something, due to my lack of patience. Yet, I keep wondering what I can do to become more like God.
Dear brothers, be patient as you wait for the Lord’s return. Consider the farmers who patiently
wait for the rains in the fall and in the spring. They eagerly look, for the valuable harvest to ripen.
You, too, must be patient. – James 7-8a
Planting for a Good Harvest
The verse above talks about being patient 3 times. This should cause us to sit up and pay attention. James wanted us to realize the utmost importance of patience. Furthermore, connecting this idea to a farmer.
How often to do we wake-up to have a full day ahead of us. No time to be in God’s Word. There are mouths to feed, clothes to wash, dishes to clean, school to be done, errands to run, and so much more. Before we know it, the day is over, so we put our kids to bed and slump onto the couch. Exhausted and worn out. Feeling completely drained from giving everything we had to our children. I am only one person. I can not do it all. Tomorrow I will spend time with God. This crazy cycle of trying to get everything done on your own, continues, till you blow a gasket, and explode.
Remember this – a farmer who plants only a few seeds will get a small crop.
But the one who plants generously will get a generous crop. You must each
decide in your heart how much to give. And don’t give reluctantly or in response
to pressure. “For God loves a person who gives cheerfully.”
~ 2 Corinthians 9:6-7
We want to be like God, but we don’t want to take the time to be with Him so. We just want to quickly read a few passages, check it off our list as done, and wait for the fruits of righteousness to grow. That is so funny, but so true.
So many days, I wake-up exhausted. I push God’s Word aside. I don’t spend anytime in prayer. Then I wonder why I am yelling at my kids, exhasterbated about the mess in my house, and why I don’t want to do school today.
Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a
new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you,
which is good and pleasing and perfect. ~ Romans 12:2
I want to be all of those things before God, more than anything. I would like to be those things in front of my family too. How often I find myself grumpy and miserable to be around. Finding that the words that are coming out of my mouth are unpleasing, not good, far from perfect. Then I get mad at myself for reacting this way, and the cycle continues. When will I stop and notice that I need God everyday.
Think about the things in heaven, not the things of earth. ~ Colossians 3:2
So true. I spend most of my days looking at the things around me. Whereas, if I looked up more often, I see the beauty in the things of my everyday life. As if heaven has come to dwell within my home. I see things as God would want me to see them. This only happens, when I renew my mind daily.
Accepting His Word
So get rid of all of the filth and evil in your lives, and humbly accept the word God
has planted in your hearts, for it has power to save your souls. ~ James 1:21
Amen. Too often I read God’s word and do not take the time to analyze what he is really saying. I can comprehend what the passage was mostly about, when I have finished reading it. Yet, to take the time to digest it, study it, and humbly accept that is how I should live, is a whole other story.
I find my pride welling up within me, as I say, “I don’t do that!!” when I read God’s Word. Till, the Holy Spirit wrenches my insides, so I really see who I am in the mirror. Dropping me to my knees in humble submition, finally admitting that I do need God. I have already made a huge mess of my own life. That without Him, it will continue to be a mess. That if I do not start accepting His Word as how I should really live, then nothing will change.
Before I read the Bible now, I pray that God will give me, His wisdom. That He will open my eyes to see what He wants me to see. That He will enable me to hear what He wants me to hear. Taking it all into my heart, where it will stay.
Being in His Word During the Tough Times
Usually when bad things happen to me, I get really depressed. I don’t want to get out of bed, much less pray or be in God’s Word. Just let me be by myself and sulk.
Those who plant in tears
will harvest with shouts of joy.
They weep as they go to plant their seed,
but they sing as they return with the harvest.
After realizing that I need God during the good and bad times, I now make it a habit to read His Word more, when I am in the middle of a storm. Even if I do not feel like it. I will read and cry, then read and cry so more. Till I can barely see the words that are in front of me.
God is faithful, beyond belief. He never falters, nor forsakes us.
Rejoice, you people of Jerusalem!
Rejoice in the Lord your God!
For the rain he sends demonstrates his faithfulness.
~ Joel 2:23a
Back then you couldn’t go to a grocery story and buy food when you were hungry. You had to rely on the rains. Do we rely on God in the middle of a storm? Do recognize how faithful He is, even when it feels like He is not around? Do we hold tight onto His truths, or are we easily uprooted by doubt and opinions of others? You want the harvest now, but you don’t want to take the time to sow the seeds, and patiently wait for God to water it and produce good fruit in you. How foolish we are.
Patience in Your Walk With God
When you enter the land and plant fruit trees, leave the fruit unharvested
for the first three years and consider it forbidden. Do not eat it. In the fourth
year the entire crop must be consecrated to the Lord as a celebration of praise.
Finally, in the fifth year you may eat the fruit. If you follow this pattern, your
harvest will increase. I am the Lord your God. ~ Leviticus 19:23-25
I remember when I first became a Christian I was 15 years old. How quickly I walked away from my faith, because it wasn’t what the rest of the world was doing. I went through some really tough things in my life and turned back to God when I was 25. My walk was sporadic. All over the place. I went to church each Sunday, but I didn’t read the Bible or pray. When I was 28, I went through a really bad divorce. I ended up running to God, and was baptized when I was 29 years old. I was on fire for God. Yet, I was still such a child in my walk. I exploded all the time. I had no self-control of my emotions. I found myself wanting to run away from all of my problems. I definitely was not loving, patient, kind, joyful, peaceful, or forgiving.
Patience. I needed to patiently keep reading God’s Word. To trust Him. To lean on Him. So I did.
At the age of 32 God asked me to quit my job and homeschool. That was a big moment for me. I was a public school teacher who loved her students. Not counting the fact that getting my Master’s Degree in Elementary Education, had taken me a long time. My job was everything to me. It’s how I saw myself in a positive way. If God took that away, what else did I have. On top of that, I would have to rely on my new husband to financially support us. I had never really been able to trust my husband in that sort of way.
I fought with God for a whole year. Till He pretty much smacked me in the face and told me I was going to homeschool. So I conceeded and resigned from my job.
At the age of 34, God asked me to start a homeschooling website. It was to be geared towards women, and help them to follow God in their homeschooling journey. I didn’t know anything about creating a website. Besides, grammar and writing were my two worst subjects in school. This time though, I listened a little bit faster. I knew there was no point in telling God “no.” So I contacted my brother, who is a computer engineering, but not a believer in God, and asked him to help me start a website. It took me countless hours of learning how to create a website, while my brother walked me through each step. Helping me in any way that he could.
Now, I am getting ready to turn 38 in the month of May this year. I make time, for the most part, to be with God every morning and throughout the day. I find myself in prayer quite a bit. I listen to Christian music most of the time. And when I am doing dishes, or have a few minutes to myself, I listen to podcasts that lift me up in God’s ways. The fruit that has been produced from my walk with God is amazing. Following Him has led me to an adventure that I never thought I would be on.
My website is doing great. I love homeschooling my kids and they love learning. I just finished writing my first Bible study book on Esther, that God asked me to write. My marriage, though rocky at times, is much better than before. My relationship with my oldest daughter is now mended. I find myself happier, more optimistic and excited about God’s plans for my family.
I still have a long way to go, but I am so thankful that I am not who I use to be.
What can you do today, to help produce more Godly fruit in your own life?
How will this help you with creating a better family unit? A better homeschooling day?